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THE EVOLUTION OF THE FEMME SELF

Eileen, Penn.

One thought that most of us don't really consider or really have the opportunity to develop is the personality of a woman within us. Those of us of course that are fortunate enough to have the opportunity and have the courage to live fully as a woman have long ago resolved this problem, but for the majority of men who choose, one way or another to express their feminine selves, there is little hope that they can delve deeply enough within themselves to find and develop their womanliness.

Most practicioners of FP are forced either to be secretive, have little or no time or resources to devote to this important side of themselves, or are so troubled through "guilt purges" and doubt that a peaceful balance are within them so necessary for development of a personality is non- existant.

It seems to be a fact and I have discovered that the answer to the ques- tion, "What would I do if I could dress anytime or as much as I want, and how far would I go with it?" is that the desire becomes less and less press- ing as the actions of everyday womanhood are assimilated. This is not to say that I would give up the pleasure, but only that I have reached the stage where there are a great deal of responsibilities that I must assume to be the woman I want to be. But before I discuss my own case at length, I will state the stages that I believe that this transition runs in its course to complete (mental at least) womanhood.

First of all, the majority of transvestites (FPs) are mental children, their femininity prepubescent, far below their chronological age. They quickly put something on, and run to a mirror or take pictures and beg for those who are close to admire them. The most dangerous thing about this is that those who have no one present to take the parental

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